As much as I hate to admit it, I need to focus on something other than trying to make enough money to pay my bills and my car insurance. I'd be lying if I were to say that I didn't desparately need those things. I'd also be lying if I denied that it was my fault that I don't have the money to pay them But, that is not the point.It's not the point because, I could dwell all day and night on my present situation and how I got here. I knew that if I quit my job without having another one and did not get another job right away, that I would face some financial difficulty.
I was facing financial difficulty anyway while I was working my but off.
I need to focus on something else. My situation is out of control and out of my hands, even though I created it. I'm not upset that I created it I'm tired of trying to climb out of it. It's like trying to dig your way out of grave with a fork I'm not dead. Nevertheless, I'm tired as hell of digging.
So, what do I do? I created this mess, as I have most messes in my life. Most of the time I've resolved the messes or cleaned them up, just to find myself facing another one not to long after. If there is diarrhea of the mouth, then I have had diarrhea of the life.
Is there a cure other than death? I think so. One of the cures is to sit and wait rather than just grab any solution that comes by. To slow down and think about the action that you want to take and why you want to take it.Not act out of desparation or desire for approval or hurry to get comfy. Thinking...I think, taking things in stride and considering is the cure.
I'm putting my fork down right now and will thinkuntil a more efficient way to get out of this hole comes to me.
