i have had to pause for station identification, as they used to say in the 50's and 60's when we were watching our black and white tv's. i have had to take a brake from the life that i was living to fix the horizontal and vertical artifiact on my tv screen. they can really ruin your tv watching experience. make it extremely difficult to tune and oh...that peskey snow that can show up along with that noisy static can make the picture completely unrecognizable.
i've had to clean up the screen and do a little rewiring... then i had to reprogram the line up. too many commercials interupting and urging people to buy buy buy...stuff that would make everything all right...make you beautiful thin sexy...make your husband love you and your children behave.
i never realized how vicariously we all live our lives. coveting those things that don't belong to us, those things that belong to others and things that we think look good, don't want or really need. we stroke the locks of others as we see them from afar, we drive the cars of anyone's dreams and everyones dream, going to lovely islands that only exist in remote areas of our fantasies....without every realizing or appreciating what we already have..
we don't ask enough questions of the peddlers, the ones that selling happy lives poured into tiny little bottles that cost us a fortune. or the guy standing on the back of the snake oil wagon he smiles winks after handing us our empty promises in smartly decorated paper bags as we robotically pull out our wallets to purchase steam infused power that we are desparate to own.
life is difficult enough. but when we summon our cinderella, tinkerbell and peter pan lives to live in auschwitz worlds we create an impossiblity that we are all too often oblivious to. we wonder what happened...where it came from... why things are the way the they are... we wander through our lives like zombies. coveting unconsciously whatever doesn't belong to us, devouring it and looking for the next victim
i have paused for station identification for a month and a half now. not sure where i was headed where is stopped. the only thing in knew was that i needed a cleare picture...sans unsigthly and unnecessary artifact so that i could walk a straighter path. not necessarily try to avoid the bumps in the road but hopefully anticipate them a little better.
i've had to clean up the screen and do a little rewiring... then i had to reprogram the line up. too many commercials interupting and urging people to buy buy buy...stuff that would make everything all right...make you beautiful thin sexy...make your husband love you and your children behave.
i never realized how vicariously we all live our lives. coveting those things that don't belong to us, those things that belong to others and things that we think look good, don't want or really need. we stroke the locks of others as we see them from afar, we drive the cars of anyone's dreams and everyones dream, going to lovely islands that only exist in remote areas of our fantasies....without every realizing or appreciating what we already have..
we don't ask enough questions of the peddlers, the ones that selling happy lives poured into tiny little bottles that cost us a fortune. or the guy standing on the back of the snake oil wagon he smiles winks after handing us our empty promises in smartly decorated paper bags as we robotically pull out our wallets to purchase steam infused power that we are desparate to own.
life is difficult enough. but when we summon our cinderella, tinkerbell and peter pan lives to live in auschwitz worlds we create an impossiblity that we are all too often oblivious to. we wonder what happened...where it came from... why things are the way the they are... we wander through our lives like zombies. coveting unconsciously whatever doesn't belong to us, devouring it and looking for the next victim
i have paused for station identification for a month and a half now. not sure where i was headed where is stopped. the only thing in knew was that i needed a cleare picture...sans unsigthly and unnecessary artifact so that i could walk a straighter path. not necessarily try to avoid the bumps in the road but hopefully anticipate them a little better.
