Every wake up in the morning feeling like you are in the wrong life? That's how I've been feeling lately. Like I should be living and doing something other than what I'm doing. Some people would say that I am ungrateful and should count my blessings. I do. I count my blessings everyday. But the difference between contentment and complancence has started to rear it's ugly head and I realize that my purpose in life has been less than fulfilled. So, what do I do about it?
Work at doing what I was meant to do.
I am convinced that my purpose in life is to write. It is a scary proposition considering the fact that I have been nursing for the past 28 years of my life. I quit my job last summer so that I could launch a freelance writing career. I was successful in some ways but I didn't make very much money. I swore that I would walk out of the nursing field and run full force into a successful freelance career. It was successful in some ways but the end point was, no money in the bank, me and a hungry son, an angry landlord and my ex and his girlfriend calling social services on me for having a messy house and claiming that I was not feeding my son.
I would say that I was foolish to do what I did. But, I'd be lying...it wasn't fun living in disarray, or struggling to buy food, warding off an angry landlord or malcontent social worker for that matter but it did provide me with much valued experience. Boy did I learn a lot!
It was an adventure and I can't wait to do it again...with adequate resources at hand that is. Although my goal may have been a little unrealistic to some, I've learned what no school could have ever taught me: the satisfaction of actually getting money for your writing and what perserverance really means where writing is concerned.
I've missed this blog terribly. It has provided me with and outlet and forum unequaled to anything that I've ever known. So, I'm back! Freelancing. Loving writing...and being true to myself.
I've also learned that, regardless of what trials and tribulations life brings in and of itself... they can be compounded by living contrary to who you are...
Work at doing what I was meant to do.
I am convinced that my purpose in life is to write. It is a scary proposition considering the fact that I have been nursing for the past 28 years of my life. I quit my job last summer so that I could launch a freelance writing career. I was successful in some ways but I didn't make very much money. I swore that I would walk out of the nursing field and run full force into a successful freelance career. It was successful in some ways but the end point was, no money in the bank, me and a hungry son, an angry landlord and my ex and his girlfriend calling social services on me for having a messy house and claiming that I was not feeding my son.
I would say that I was foolish to do what I did. But, I'd be lying...it wasn't fun living in disarray, or struggling to buy food, warding off an angry landlord or malcontent social worker for that matter but it did provide me with much valued experience. Boy did I learn a lot!
It was an adventure and I can't wait to do it again...with adequate resources at hand that is. Although my goal may have been a little unrealistic to some, I've learned what no school could have ever taught me: the satisfaction of actually getting money for your writing and what perserverance really means where writing is concerned.
I've missed this blog terribly. It has provided me with and outlet and forum unequaled to anything that I've ever known. So, I'm back! Freelancing. Loving writing...and being true to myself.
I've also learned that, regardless of what trials and tribulations life brings in and of itself... they can be compounded by living contrary to who you are...
