Being Sad

I'm not sure I like blogging.

My daughter told me not to put too much of myself on the internet because of the ways people view stuff like this.  I don't really care how people view things. Just because someone else thinks that this is not a good thing to do doesn't mean that it's not.  I'm sad a lot.  I don't like being sad.  And with the statistics regarding depression in this country, I bet a lot of other people are sad but don't say anything and are afraid to talk about it.  (Look at Michael Jackson...and Rush Limbaugh). Blogging my feelings has been very therapeutic and I'm just really getting into doing this.

We, live in gravely dysfunctional society. With dysfunction often comes distortion of the truth.  We don't particularly like the truth.  I don't think my sadness comes from depression sometimes as much as it comes from coming to terms with the way this society runs things.  And I can probably be happy regardless of what is... orhappens around me. But I ruminate about stuff alot.  Maybe I look too closely at the state of things or identify too much with other people's troubles.

We live lies everyday and go on with our daily lives ignoring it.  Or, behaving like it's the truth or...we don't even attempt to distinguish between what is true and what is not.

When I saw Obama make his Pulitzer speech this morning I was a little dismayed. He must feel like a real hypocrite.  I mean how do you win a Pulitzer peace prize and justify tanking up a war all at the same time?
As much as I love Barack Obama, I wouldn't want to be in his shoes or Michelle's for that matter, right now. or Malea's and Sasha's.  It must be hard as hell being the first black president in a country as racist as this one. And the thing is, many people get mad if you say that the country is racist.

Our country was built on racism...and people get an attitude if you say it out loud.  Some people would say that I'm un-American for saying that.  It's not an opinion though.  I'm going by what I see.  Especially in the way that Barack Obama is treated as president.  It's sad that the best and the brightest in this country appear to be the most closed-minded. The moral majority...Republicans.

What exactly is American anyway?

That's enough to make anybody sad if you really think about it.