I have never been as aware of my thought processes during the holiday season as I have been this year. I have often ignored much of my life where blatant or obvious emotion was concerned because I probably was not strong enough to face whatever my thoughts were at the time. This I believe is probably the source of the holiday blues phenomenon.
I can identify with Lewis Carroll's character Scrooge more now, than ever in my life.
When I was little, I just thought he was a mean man who was getting what he deserved, being scared to death by three ghosts. Then, I grew up to be a lot like him.
I believe that there is a little bit of Scrooge in every adult.
In that, we are all frightened by our ghosts of Christmases-past, present and future at some point or another. And most of us have a lot more to deal with than three. (Trust me on this, I'm speaking from experience). Add to that, the ghosts of Thanksgivings and New Years to the mix, and you have a ghostly party that would drive the most sane appearing of us absolutely beserk.
After what I've been through this past year, my ghosts have been boogeyin' in my face this whole holiday season. Actually, they've followed me around, the entire year. Some of them I've shooed away, some of them I've made friends with, and still others wait in the wings for me to recognize or notice them.
I'm not sure what events will present themselves to me this year. But, I know that come what may, if I'm courageous enough to look my ghosts in the eye, I'll get through it.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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