I am so glad the holidays are ending. Never in my life have I been as aware of the emotional toll that the Holidays take as I have been this year. I have mulled over, thought about, ruminated on and wondered about the events of the past year, and if I had it to do all over again...guess what, I wouldn't have a choice as to whether I would go through it all again. Even, with 20/20 hindsight. Just thinking about it all exhausts me and come to think of it...all I've wanted to do since Christmas eve is sleep.
Anyway, I said I was looking forward to the New Year, but if it's going to be anything like last year, then I change my mind. From where I stand, things don't look too good. My finances are a mess, I'm looking for a place to move to, I hate working the job that I have( for various reasons which I'm not sure are important and don't really want to go into here). Most people would cringe at the list of moans and groans that I can enumerate. But I'm convinced that life wasn't made to be pleasant, I guess it was made to be a challenge. And I have plenty of them.
Nevertheless, I will try to face the fire breathing dragons in my life with bravery, and a coat of armour. And hope for the best.
I'm still here...So last year couldn't have been all that bad,
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Happy New Year...Happy New Year. I keep saying it over and over in my mind but I almost feel like I don't understand what it means. It feels like pouring water on wax and waiting for the wax to absorb it. It's just not getting in. ARGH!!!
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