I'm tired. Thank God, I developed enough courage and forsight to ask for a vacation. This is the last day before vacay that I will work. I'm more spiritually exhausted than physically. I'm also mentally and emotionally exhausted. I need a break. My trip to Boston is off. NO FUNDS. But since I was planning on driving, maybe that's a good thing since I probably would have been the lone driver and ended up sleeping for half of the vacation. I have lots of things to accomplish here at home--which I will refrain from enumerating here-- that are just jumping up and screaming in my face! So, I will do those thing. Which is hard for me, because I have trouble staying focused on the things that are closest to me, that matter most to me, that impact my life the most. I will stop labeling this fact insane because, I realize that many people are THIS way (and I'll discuss this another time).
I can organize my disgustingly disorganized house (that's the nice way of describing it). Focus on my blog and spiritual goals and career goals. I was scared before now. I'm still scared but have the courage to walk in the direction I want to go in anyway and one day I hope to be elated that I did. It is so hard to walk on a path that is unfamiliar. But, I have to. I must. I don't know why I must, it's just this strong urge (and it makes me feel special, like I have been mystically chosen--but, I'll discuss that later too). Many people would call me crazy, but I have learned the hard way that the masses don't necessarily have the answers--which is a frightening fact).
My theme for the week: (I'm going to start thinking up themes for the week 'cause it will make it easier for my 0 reading population to keep up with what I write, as well as myself--well, mainly myself.) Oh...I almost forgot...my theme: A true hero(ine) first, champions her own cause. Tadaaaaaaaaaaa!
Have a good day!
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