I sit at the computer surfing the net and looking for information on the unconscious. I was planning on writing a fiction story based on unconscious stuff. I start having these anxiety attacks. I drank a cup of caffeinated coffee with sugar in it while I was journaling at Starbucks. That is a "no-no" for me. I know this and I did it anyway.
Anyway, I'm sitting here at the computer just searching and typing and looking for unconscious stuff and I feel like I just want to run upstairs, get in the bed and close my eyes. I feel sleepy but nothing overwhelming. I just want to escape the rush of thoughts going through my head. At least if I start to snore, I know that I will be content and relaxed for a few minutes. Had I not had that coffee, I would be content and relaxed probably all day.
It's not only the caffeine that sends me bouncing off the walls but the sugar too. My mother suffered from anxiety, I wonder if the sugar is why. She wouldn't partake of caffeine in any form.
Now, I'm sitting here and journaling about my near psychotic experience...is that anything like a near death experience? Probably not, but I swear they have a lot of similiarities. Aside from the fact that psychotics have a break from reality. ( I like to break and run from reality periodically). A near death experience is just a different type of reality. Maybe, we can say that about hallucinations too.
I write my thoughts on these blogs. I suppose if I put pictures next to them, someone would be more apt to read them. Maybe, I don't want anyone else to read them. I don't know why pictures attract people. They don't necessarily make a blog more interesting to read as far as I'm concerned. Just makes them more attactive to look at. And then, I guess it depends on who you are.
I have interesting things to say sometimes. I don't think anyone spews out meaningful words constantly, all day, week, year long. And these days, if they did would anyone listen?
Anyway, I'm sitting here at the computer just searching and typing and looking for unconscious stuff and I feel like I just want to run upstairs, get in the bed and close my eyes. I feel sleepy but nothing overwhelming. I just want to escape the rush of thoughts going through my head. At least if I start to snore, I know that I will be content and relaxed for a few minutes. Had I not had that coffee, I would be content and relaxed probably all day.
It's not only the caffeine that sends me bouncing off the walls but the sugar too. My mother suffered from anxiety, I wonder if the sugar is why. She wouldn't partake of caffeine in any form.
Now, I'm sitting here and journaling about my near psychotic experience...is that anything like a near death experience? Probably not, but I swear they have a lot of similiarities. Aside from the fact that psychotics have a break from reality. ( I like to break and run from reality periodically). A near death experience is just a different type of reality. Maybe, we can say that about hallucinations too.
I write my thoughts on these blogs. I suppose if I put pictures next to them, someone would be more apt to read them. Maybe, I don't want anyone else to read them. I don't know why pictures attract people. They don't necessarily make a blog more interesting to read as far as I'm concerned. Just makes them more attactive to look at. And then, I guess it depends on who you are.
I have interesting things to say sometimes. I don't think anyone spews out meaningful words constantly, all day, week, year long. And these days, if they did would anyone listen?
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