Random Thoughts

Aw heck, it's morning. I forgot to put out the trash.  I'm tired and I think...Random thoughts.  It's cold in here.  The sun is up and the street lights go off.  Stormy sneaked into one of my dresser drawers leaving a trail of shedding hair behind her. My knees hurt. Bad Girls Club is fun to watch.  Never occurred to me that people who claim to be grown women would choose to act like animals.  Charlie Sheen...I'm angry at and fascinated with him at the same time.  May he rest in peace.  The epitome of arrogance and foolishness.  I don't feel sorry for him.  But, I do have sympathy for Lindsay Lohan.  Why are we prone to do the same things over and over and over again and expect different results? I have never watched Groundhog Day in it's entirety because I think that it hits too close to home for me.   I don't want to nurse anymore...I want to be and feel free.  I can be and feel free.  What is freedom anyway?...Life is a prison.  We are bound by "have tos", too many of 'em if you ask me.  I am so proud of my baby sister Debbie and I stlll feel like crap from having the flu.  Still too weak to get up but I think some of the weakness has to do with my eating too much sugar.  I need to lose more weight and go to the doctor. Cora  functions better than I do.  But she sits a lot.  She has a membership at the gym.  Maybe, I should get one too.  I was supposed to read Hat's cover letter but I never did. Maybe I shouldn't post this stuff...What should I post? Something else?  I don't know.  I suppose that all of my posts are kind of random thoughts.  Oh I love cats....I love cats.  No I don't.  I got stormy by default. My daughter asked for and then left her with me when she went of to college.  I think she didn't like Storm because she kept saying that Storm would not let her hold her. My daughter has asthma.  Why would you want to hold a long haired cat if you have asthma? Maybe she has inherited my self destructive tendencies.  I remember that lady who had those cats upstairs that kept falling off of her porch and they got their eyes injured and the affair that I had with that guy in my building.  I did some stupid things in my life.  That was pure evil and hatefulness.  I hated me and everyone else.  You can tell when someone loves themselves.  They don't hurt other people.  I have hurt other people and tried to justify my actions.  I thought of myself as a bad person at the time but now I know that I was just ignorant.  I just didn't know any better.  I thought it was okay because I hurt.  Hurt people hurt people....had I known how much damage that I did just by hurting, I would have thought about what I did before I did it.  But, I just used to do stuff.  My life is still kind of haphazard.  A kind of "catch a as catch can throw it in the air and see where it lands" kind of existence.  But, sometimes I think that it 's because I want so badly to be normal that I ask everyone else what they think I should do.  Most people have difficulty figuring out what's right period.  Throw my life in to the mix and it really confuses them.
Random thoughts.  I wake up in the morning with things on my mind.  I go to sleep with things on my mind.  I ride to work with things on my mind. I wake up with things on my mind and things are still on my mind...Amen.