It makes no sense to cater to the desires of a world that is blind and has no insights. Yet, I do it everyday. My job, the stores, modern trends, opinions, politics. I woke up still this morning, the amazing thing is that my desiet upre to resist the stillness was very strong. Thursdays, we have meetings at work about the patients. Not much is really discussed, but I am often called on the phone, to make sure that I dial in.
I set my alarm clock for 8 am this morning so that I could get up and dial in. I don't feel well so when my clock alarmed, I got up, shut it off and lay back down for a few minutes. When I opened my eyes, two hours had passed and the enthusiasm that I thought I'd have from sleeping for a couple of more minutes had not appeared either. But, in it's place was a sense of peace and I found myself having to choose between savoring that sense of peace and running downstairs, grabbing a cup of coffee( coffee is a real peace breaker) and dialing in to the meeting--hich my contributions are often minimized, non-existent or ignored. I chose to savor the peace (with guilt and a dysfunctional sense of responsibility trying to nuzzle their way in)
Stillness is not only a way of being, but it is a sense of being. A sense of being that I have rarely if ever experienced before.
Whatever the external consequences of resisting the biddings the world, the internal benefits outweigh them.
Catering to the bidding of my soul takes courage, time and discipline. The world is averse to peace and stillness and that's too bad. It doesn't know what it's missing.
I look forward to more stillness...Still.
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